soon, soon, I feel it in my waters...

I was happy once again to veg out this weekend, and not do much, having managed to get through a number of errands that needed to be done. The list looks like, pick up the shirts from the drycleaners, check to make sure the ATO has the right details for the "stimulus" money, get contracts for second job and other associated tasks done [including staff card and library access],

Feeling somewhat anxious about upcoming things.

In my mind the count down for, fingers crossed, what is hopefully the finale that messy little incidenct at the beginning of the year has the music speeding up and getting more intense, and the lights flashing even more quickly. Yes it looks like the bureaucratic wheels are finally turning and will spit out the result. And it looks like it will happen soon.

I'm feeling a little bit angsty, and anxious just wanting the whole thing to be over, and being able to feel freer and move onto the next part of my life without this hanging over my head.

The anxiousness and angst felt melted somewhat for what was to be another weekend of a great surprise. I do quite like surprises, especially ones that bring a smile to my face.

I'm still smiling now - despite being very behind in preparing for work tomorrow.

Oh well...

weekend surprise

I didn't have much hopes for the weekend, just a quiet little affair, not doing much.

Oh how wrong I was!

I had one of the most pleasant surprises, which made my weekend.

I also caught up with a close friend on Sunday. We did the wine thing at Hyde Park, which was fantastic.

tis the season for football (I refer here to the world game)

football season is about to begin.

Yay! I think as I put together my kit for todays friendly with another team in another comp. football boots - check; shin pads - check; socks - check; lots of water - check; cold packs - check; etc. Kind of excited that rather than training training we're playing a game.

Cut to 80 minutes later ->

Oh boy... I think as I lay on the grass at the end of the game gasping for air and sweating heavily not really loving the humid weather. Fitness and ball skills can only up from here.

Crap, I have some sunburn.

the friends of relationships past...

when a relationship ends (no matter how long ago) the issue of catching up with friends, especially those that have shared in the past history of that relationship, can be a little tricky.

so it was with a little trepidation that I caught up with a couple of friends that were part of the shared history of a past relationship that ended a long time ago. (on a side note, the person with whom I was in an intimate relationship and I are still friends)

I shouldn't have worried at all. this was exactly what I needed to lift the spirits, and share in some general catching up chatter, and talking about some of those more painful life events.

it was almost like the time gap between the last time I saw these wonderful women and today did not exist. there was of course the mandatory fill in the last couple of years (yes it had been years), but being able to let go of some of the icky things that have happened and also share in the icky things that had happened in their lives, and of course revel in the good and gossipy!, was emotionally liberating.

it takes a lot to share the good and bad life events, especially in the trust department. today it was a wonderful feeling to have that trust reciprocated and appreciated.

crankiness in the morning...

ever woken up in the morning and you feel great... nice slow start to the day... then for some strange reason something has snapped (though you don't feel the snap, hear the snap, or see the snap moment), and you have a great big black cloud over your head, and it seems that the world trully is out there to make sure that your life is hell...

it doesn't seem to matter what it is that goes on, you interpret it as the world making your life hell.

in trying to snap out of teh funk, you try what usually works, yet you get shot down... and are unable to remove the big black cloud...

Content...

There's nothing better, at least in my book, in having good company and spending time with people that matter.

This weekend was like that. Relaxed, good company, eating (I really really really really like that aspect a lot!), and using the most precious thing I have with people I care about - time.

I think I've always been an "old" young person, preferring other social activites than going out and getting absolutely ripped (on whatever it is that the "young" do, alcohol and other kinds of things).

Ah contentment...

what a way to start the morning...

I thought I would be ok on Monday - had a minor issue on the weekend that I thought would be fine by this morning... alas not to be!

Snarl:

• the way I woke up this morning... grrrrr!

More smiles...

Well here's one for the record books - more than 1 post on a day, especially given the difficulties I have in already updating on a frequent and regular basis.

The smile I have today is (and the spent-most-of-my-life-living-in-QLD-and-go-for-the-Maroons-but-now-living-in-NSW in me is not liking this post)

• daylight savings

There's nothing like good company, sitting outside, sipping a good cold white wine while the sun sets at about 8:30 at night. Ah bliss. If only every day of the week could be like the weekends!